Tuesday, April 21, 2026

True Stories for First Communicants - Reggie


(First published in 1918 — this copy reprinted in 1952)

As First Communion time draws near, we are happy to begin sharing a little series of these beautiful and instructive stories.

Reggie

A few years ago in a large convent school you might have seen a happy band of children getting ready for their First Holy Communion. Such little mites they looked, nine boys and seven girls, the youngest only six, the eldest eight years old. Though they were so young they were very much in earnest, all trying to fill their hearts with beautiful flowers for Little Baby Jesus. Day after day they would come running in to tell Sister of some fresh flower added to the rest. It would be:

“Sister, I gave a penny to a poor boy coming to school!” or: “Sister, I turned the rope three times instead of jumping,” or a fidgety little mite would say: “Sister, I never looked round once the whole lesson,” and so on, each wanting Sister to know how much he or she was trying.

The First Communion Day was to be on the 25th of March, the beautiful Feast of the Annunciation. Now all preparations were made. Each little soul had been washed in the Precious Blood of Our Dear Lord in Confession the day before, and the great morning of the 25th had come. Such a beautiful spring morning it was. One by one the children arrived, the little girls in their white dresses with their snowy veils and wreaths of roses on their heads, and the little boys in nice suits. As they came in, each sat quietly in a little chair in class, until all were ready.

One little lad, in changing his shoes, had soiled his fingers and asked if he might go and wash them. “I couldn’t go to Holy Communion with dirty fingers, could I, Sister?” he said as he went. Alas! how little Sister or he thought what that little act would cost him.

As he was washing his fingers he spied a little cup just beside the basin. Without a thought he filled it to the brim and took a long refreshing drink, then, running quickly back to the others, he sat down contentedly in his chair. Two minutes later there was a knock at the door. Sister was wanted. One of the servants was there; she came to say she thought—she wasn’t sure, but she thought—she had caught sight of one of the little gentlemen taking a drink of water.

Sister’s heart sank within her. Could it be true? Returning to the children she said quietly: “Did any little boy forget and take a drink of water?”

Poor little Reggie! In an instant it flashed into his mind what he had done. With the remembrance came the temptation not to tell, but it was only for a moment. No, he would be brave. White as his little suit, and trembling from head to foot, he looked up at the Sister.

“Oh, Sister, I did—I never thought. Oh, Sister, what can I do?”

Tenderly drawing the child to her side Sister tried to comfort him, telling him that he need only wait till tomorrow. But the poor little fellow seemed quite stunned, unable to realise what it all meant.

Then they went up to chapel in procession. Reggie knelt beside Sister. What were his thoughts as he knelt there in that beautiful chapel, watching the priest and listening to the sweet singing? Presently the bell rang for the Elevation. Then the children made aloud their short “Acts before Holy Communion.”

The longed-for moment had at last arrived. Slowly and reverently the little ones went up to the altar rails—all but Reggie. Only then did the truth really dawn upon him—Baby Jesus could not come into his heart. All would receive Him, only he would be left out. Poor little Reggie, he burst into passionate sobs, startling all in the chapel. He was obliged to be taken out that the others might not be disturbed.

All that day he joined with the others in their games and amusements. Such a sad little face he looked among the others whose hearts were overflowing with peace and happiness.

But the next morning very early, when all his little companions of the day before were still in bed, Reggie’s father and mother brought him once more to the convent. No music and singing to be heard to-day. All the music was in Reggie’s heart as at last Baby Jesus entered it for the first time. How much he had to tell Him—all about the long weeks of preparation and then about the bitter disappointment of the day before. But how happy he was now, and how quickly the moments flew.

“I had to finish talking to Jesus all the way out of chapel!” he said. But I don’t think he or his little companions could ever forget that they must be “fasting from midnight.”


Sunday, April 19, 2026

The Sunday Sermon - Third Sunday after Easter

Nun conducting class at Espada Mission school.
Location:San Antonio, Texas, USA
Date taken:1945
Photographer:Alfred Eisenstaedt


Friends, for this Third Sunday of Easter, we read once again the story of the two disciples on the road to Emmaus—a literary masterpiece, yes, but above all, a spiritual masterpiece. This story is not just about something that happened long ago; it’s also about the Church now, and in all times. And it tells us who Jesus is and how to recognize him.

Saturday, April 18, 2026

The Portion of the Children of God in This Life

(Third Sunday after Easter)

When Jesus was getting ready to leave His disciples, He told them something a little sad. He said that they would have troubles—times of hardship, suffering, and being treated badly—but that the world would go on laughing and rejoicing.

And truly, that is what happened. The Apostles lived lives full of trials. It was like a long chain of sacrifices, one after another, all for love of Jesus. And this is not only for them, but for all who truly love God. Their lives carry the mark of the Cross, which shows they belong to Him.

Now, in God’s eyes, this kind of life is very precious. But in the eyes of the world, it can look foolish or even sad, because the world only looks at what is easy and comfortable. It doesn’t understand love that is willing to suffer.

But Jesus does something beautiful. He does not leave His faithful ones without comfort. Hidden deep inside their sufferings, He gives a kind of sweetness—like a secret manna from heaven. It is a quiet joy that the world cannot see. This is why the Apostle could say, “I am filled with joy, even in all my troubles.”

Because of this hidden sweetness, many souls choose to follow the Cross. They give themselves to lives of prayer, sacrifice, and caring for others, even when it is hard. And the more generously they accept the Cross, the more they will share in the joy and glory that Jesus has promised.

Jesus Himself said, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.” So even though their lives may look difficult, they are truly blessed.

We should be very thankful to the Holy Ghost for helping us see that the world’s way is not everything, and that there is a deeper happiness in belonging to God. And we should ask Him to make our hearts generous, so we can serve God with love, no matter what comes.

A Little Prayer

Dear Jesus, help me not to be afraid of hard things. When I feel sad or struggle, please give me that quiet joy that comes from loving You. Teach me to carry my little crosses with a willing heart, and to trust that You are always near. Make me generous and faithful, so I may belong to You always. Amen.


Mary's Little Office

Prayer before the Little Office
Matins 6 A.M.
Prime 7A.M.
Terce 9 A.M.
Sext 12 Noon
None 3 P.M.
Vespers 6 P.M.
Compline 10 P.M.

The Lords Prayer




Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name. 
Thy kingdom come. 
Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. 
Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us. 
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.


Friday, April 17, 2026

The Zeal of the Two Apostles



Peter and John heard from Mary Magdalene that Jesus was no longer in the tomb, and right away they hurried there as fast as they could. They didn’t stop to wonder or doubt or listen to what others might say. Their love for Jesus made them run. It was love that moved their feet and filled their hearts.

When we really love someone, we don’t wait or hold back—we go quickly. That’s how it is with loving Jesus too. If we truly love Him, we won’t be slow or distracted when it comes to doing what is right. We won’t let little worries or what other people think stop us from going closer to Him.

Peter and John even encouraged each other without saying a word, just by running side by side. Their love became stronger together. That’s how it should be with us. We can help one another love Jesus more by our example—by being kind, faithful, and doing our duties with care.

It must make Jesus so happy when people live this way, helping each other grow closer to Him. It’s like a warm fire that spreads from one heart to another. A place filled with love for God becomes peaceful and bright, and everyone in it is helped along the way to heaven.

So we should thank God for every chance we have to love Him and to help others do the same. And we should keep trying, every day, to be faithful and full of love, never holding back.

A Little Prayer:

Dear Jesus, please give me a quick and loving heart like Peter and John. Help me to run to You in all things, and to encourage others by my example. Let my love for You grow warm and bright, and never grow slow or cold. Amen.


Evening Prayer




✠ In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen.

Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Hail, Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee: blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Ghost. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

I believe in God, the Father almighty, Creator of heaven and earth. And in Jesus Christ His only Son our Lord; who was conceived by the Holy Ghost, born of the Virgin Mary; suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, dead and buried; He descended into hell; the third day He rose again from the dead; He ascended into heaven, sitteth at the right hand of God the Father almighty; from thence He shall come to judge the living and the dead. I believe in the Holy Ghost; the holy Catholic Church; the communion of saints; the forgiveness of sins; the resurrection of the body, and life everlasting. Amen.

O my God, I thank Thee for all the benefits which I have ever received from Thee, and especially this day. Give me light to see what sins I have committed, and grant me grace to be truly sorry for them.

I now take a quiet moment to think about the day, to thank Jesus for the good, and to say I’m sorry for anything I did wrong.”

I confess to almighty God, to blessed Mary ever a virgin, to blessed Michael the Archangel, to blessed John the Baptist, to the holy Apostles Peter and Paul, and to all the Saints, that I have sinned exceedingly in thought, word and deed; through my fault, through my fault, through my most grievous fault. Therefore I beseech blessed Mary ever a virgin, blessed Michael the Archangel, blessed John the Baptist, the holy Apostles Peter and Paul, and all the Saints, to pray to the Lord our God for me. Amen.

O my God, I am very sorry that I have offended Thee, because Thou art so good; I love Thee with all my heart, and with Thy help I will not sin again.

Into Thy hands, O Lord, I commend my spirit; Lord Jesus, receive my soul.

Holy Mary, be a mother to me.

May our Blessed Lady, St. Joseph, and all the Saints, pray for us to our Lord, that we may be preserved this night from sin and all evil. Amen.

O my good Angel, whom God has appointed to be my guardian, watch over me during this night.

All ye Angels and Saints of God, pray for me.

May our Lord ✠ bless us and preserve us from all evil, and bring us to life everlasting.

✠ May the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace. Amen.

Catholic Truth Society, London - 1945





Morning Prayer


 
✠ In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen.

Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Hail, Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee: blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Ghost. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

I believe in God, the Father almighty, Creator of heaven and earth. And in Jesus Christ His only Son our Lord; who was conceived by the Holy Ghost, born of the Virgin Mary; suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, dead and buried; He descended into hell; the third day He rose again from the dead; He ascended into heaven, sitteth at the right hand of God the Father almighty; from thence He shall come to judge the living and the dead. I believe in the Holy Ghost; the holy Catholic Church; the communion of saints; the forgiveness of sins; the resurrection of the body, and life everlasting. Amen.

O my God, I believe in Thee, because Thou art Truth itself.

O my God, I hope and trust in Thee, because of Thy promises to me.

O my God, I love Thee above all things, because Thou art Thyself so good; teach me to love Thee daily more and more.

O my God, I offer Thee all my thoughts, words, actions, and sufferings; and I beseech Thee to give me Thy grace that I may not offend Thee this day, but may faithfully serve Thee and do Thy holy will in all things.

I desire to gain all the indulgences that I can.

Holy Mary, be a mother to me.

All ye Angels and Saints of God, pray for me.

May our Lord ✠ bless us and preserve us from all evil and bring us to life everlasting.

✠ May the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace. Amen.

During the day: Frequently remind yourself of the loving God by momentary acts of love. Keep away from what leads to sin. Be obedient. Always tell the truth. Do not steal. Do not let anyone lead you to do anything wrong. God is with you. Be afraid of none but God. If you are tempted to sin, make the sign of the Cross and say, “Lord, save me, or I perish.” If you have fallen into sin, say, “My God, I am very sorry that I have offended Thee, I will not sin again.” Amen. 

Catholic Truth Society, London - 1945


Thursday, April 16, 2026

Matins 6 A.M.




Hail, Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee: blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Come, my lips, and wide proclaim

The Blessed Virgin’s spotless fame.

O Lady, make speed to befriend me.

From the hands of the enemy mightily defend me.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Ghost:

As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen. Alleluia.

Hymn

Hail, Queen of the Heavens!
Hail, Mistress of earth!
Hail, Virgin most pure,
Of immaculate birth!

Clear Star of the Morning,
In beauty enshrined,
O Lady, make speed
To the help of mankind!

Thee God in the depth
Of eternity chose;
And formed thee all fair,
As His glorious Spouse;

And called thee His Word’s
Own Mother to be,
By Whom He created
The earth, sky, and sea. Amen.

God elected her, and pre-elected her.
He made her to dwell in His tabernacle.
O Lady, hear my prayer.
And let my cry come unto thee.

Let us pray.

Holy Mary, Queen of Heaven, Mother of our Lord Jesus Christ, and Mistress of the world, who forsakest no one, and despisest no one; look upon me, O Lady, with an eye of pity, and entreat for me of thy beloved Son the forgiveness of all my sins; that, as I now celebrate with devout affection thy holy and Immaculate Conception, so hereafter I may receive the prize of eternal blessedness, by the grace of Him Whom thou, a virgin, didst bring forth, Jesus Christ our Lord; Who, with the Father and the Holy Ghost, liveth and reigneth, in perfect Trinity, God, world without end. Amen.

O Lady, hear my prayer.
And let my cry come unto thee.
Let us bless the Lord.
Thanks be to God.

May the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace.

Amen.


Vespers 6 P.M.


 
O Lady, make speed to befriend me.
From the hands of the enemy mightily defend me.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Ghost:

As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen. Alleluia.

Hymn

Hail, dial of Achaz!
On thee the true Sun
Told backward the course
Which from old He had run!

And, that man might be raised,
Submitting to shame,
A little more low
Than the angels became.

Thou, wrapt in the blaze
Of His infinite light,
Dost shine as the morn
On the confines of night;

As the moon on the lost
Through obscurity dawns;
The serpent’s destroyer!
A lily ’mid thorns! Amen.

I made an unfailing light to arise in heaven.
And as a mist I overspread the whole earth.

O Lady, hear my prayer.

And let my cry come unto thee.

Let us pray.

Holy Mary, Queen of Heaven, Mother of our Lord Jesus Christ, and Mistress of the world, who forsakest no one, and despisest no one; look upon me, O Lady, with an eye of pity, and entreat for me of thy beloved Son the forgiveness of all my sins; that, as I now celebrate with devout affection thy holy and Immaculate Conception, so hereafter I may receive the prize of eternal blessedness, by the grace of Him Whom thou, a virgin, didst bring forth, Jesus Christ our Lord; Who, with the Father and the Holy Ghost, liveth and reigneth, in perfect Trinity, God, world without end. Amen.

O Lady, hear my prayer.

And let my cry come unto thee.
Let us bless the Lord.

Thanks be to God.

May the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace.

Amen.




More Than a Mother



Five Surprising Insights from the Ancient Liturgy of the Immaculate Conception.

The prayers of the ancient liturgy often function as a linguistic cathedral—a vast, resonant structure designed to house truths too large for the casual vernacular. Among these, the "Little Office of the Immaculate Conception" stands as a metaphysical map, tracing a portrait of Mary that transcends the familiar depiction of a humble Galilean mother. To the modern ear, these centuries-old recitations might seem like mere historical echoes, yet they articulate a "cosmic" status for the Virgin that is both startling and deeply systematic.
By deconstructing the symbolism and history of this office, we encounter a figure woven into the very fabric of creation, revealing a sophisticated theological framework where history, mystery, and "theological math" converge.

1. The Pre-Elected Archetype: Chosen Before Time
In the internal logic of the liturgy, Mary’s role is never a historical afterthought or a divine contingency plan. The text asserts an ontological priority: she was "pre-elected" in the depth of eternity. This moves beyond the simple idea of being "chosen"; the liturgy suggests she was conceived in the divine mind as a "glorious Spouse" and a necessary partner to the divine plan before the "poles of the world" were set.
This counter-intuitive depth is anchored in the liturgy’s application of the Book of Proverbs to Mary, identifying her with the personification of Divine Wisdom:
"The Lord possessed me in the beginning of his ways, Before he made anything from the beginning. I was set up from eternity, And of old before the earth was made... When he prepared the heavens, I was present."
By applying these words to her, the liturgy elevates Mary from a temporal inhabitant of first-century Palestine to a cosmic necessity. She is presented as being "with Him" during the balancing of the earth's foundations, suggesting her existence was pre-figured in the original architecture of the universe.

2. The "Morning Star" Logic and the Davidic Claim
The liturgy frequently hails Mary as the "Clear Star of the Morning." While this imagery possesses a poetic resonance, it is grounded in a precise astronomical and scriptural logic. The morning star (Venus) is the herald of the dawn; it is not the source of light but its reflection, appearing just before the sun breaks the horizon.
The text clarifies that Mary’s glory is entirely derivative, reflecting the brilliance of the "Sun of Justice." This is not merely a metaphor for her purity, but a legal and biological claim rooted in the Davidic line. The source context explicitly links this to the Apocalypse (Revelation):
"I am the root and the stock of David, the bright and morning star" (Apoc. xxii, 16).
Because Christ’s association with the House of David was physically mediated through Mary, she "participates in His titles." She is the star that gives confidence to those still in the night of this world, leading them—as the star led the Magi—to the Child. Her role is to usher in the "Day of the Lord," acting as the threshold between the darkness of the old world and the light of the new.

3. The "Queen of Mercy" as a Structural Necessity
One of the most striking insights from the Matins is the argument for a "Queen" as a necessary counterbalance within the divine hierarchy. The liturgy describes a "divine Monarch"—Jesus, the universal King—who governs His empire with "wisdom" and "firmness." However, the text suggests that for the human spirit to endure the "sublime majesty" of the Law, there must be a tempering force.
Mary is positioned as the "Queen of Mercy" to provide a "sovereignty of love." This addresses a profound psychological and structural need: the tension between divine justice (firmness) and the human need for clemency (the exception).
"Mary is this Queen of Mercy, whom Jesus has made a partaker of His royal power, and whose tender goodness is the hope and refuge of her faithful and loving servants."
In this liturgical view, the Queen does not oppose the King’s justice; rather, she softens its "sublime majesty" with her sweetness, making a terrifyingly high God approachable to the "faithful and loving."

4. Mistress of the Earth and the Universal Motherhood
The liturgy employs a form of theological "math" to establish Mary’s jurisdiction over the physical and spiritual realms. This is expressed through a syllogism rooted in the Prologue of St. John’s Gospel:All things (the earth, sky, and sea) were brought into being by "the Word."Mary is the Mother of the "Word made Flesh."Therefore, she holds a maternal claim as "Mistress of the world."
This logic transforms her maternity into an ontological status. Because she birthed the Architect, she has a unique claim over the architecture. However, the liturgy warms this cold logic by connecting it to the human experience at the foot of the Cross. When Jesus committed Mary to St. John, the liturgy posits that John "stood not for himself alone, but for every soul that should love Jesus." Thus, her title as "Mistress of Earth" is not one of distant lordship, but of a universal, maternal jurisdiction over every soul.

5. The Secret History of "Amen" and "Alleluia"
Beyond the grand titles, the very language of the Matins—the liturgical "automatic" words—carries centuries of emphatic weight. These terms are linguistic fossils, preserved to anchor the prayer in the "glory of the Blessed Trinity."The Gloria Patri: The text reveals a layered history here. The first part ("Glory be to the Father...") is based on the ancient "form of baptism" and dates to the first centuries of the Church. The second part ("As it was in the beginning...") is a 5th-century addition, serving as a historical anchor for a prayer said fifty times a day by the clergy.Amen and Alleluia: Both are Hebrew anchors. "Amen" signifies "truly so" or "certainly," providing a seal of assent. "Alleluia" ("Praise ye Yah") is an exclamation of such profound joy that the liturgy physically alters itself during times of penance. From Septuagesima until Easter, "Alleluia" is removed and replaced with: "Praise be to thee, O Lord, King of everlasting glory."
These linguistic shifts demonstrate that the liturgy is a living organism, adjusting its breath and vocabulary to match the spiritual season.
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The ancient devotions of the Immaculate Conception reveal a figure who is as much a cosmic force as a human mother. Through the lens of these prayers, we see a "Spouse of the Word" who was pre-figured before the mountains were balanced and who remains a necessary agent of clemency in a world of "divine firmness." This ancient structure of prayer forces a modern reflection: in our pursuit of the immediate and the temporary, have we lost the sense of "pre-destiny" and the cosmic mercy that these ancient words were designed to preserve?
 


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Sunday, February 15, 2026

Saturday, February 14, 2026

Love Makes Everything Better


I think St. Thérèse is saying that love makes everything better. Even if we mess up sometimes, or do something we shouldn’t, love doesn’t just give up and sit there feeling bad. Real love for Jesus takes our mistakes and turns them into something good. It makes us sorry in a gentle way and helps us try again. And when we truly love Him, that love sort of “burns up” the bad feelings and selfishness inside us, like a little fire in the stove. What’s left is a quiet heart — humble, not proud — and very peaceful.

So she is teaching that love is stronger than our faults, and if we keep loving Jesus, He will leave us with a deep, calm peace inside.

Love Kathy, 

Littlemore Farm

Friday, February 13, 2026

Our Mother Brings us to Jesus

The words at the bottom are in Italian and say, “Sacro Cuore di Maria, siate la salvezza mia.” That means, “Sacred Heart of Mary, be my salvation.” It shows the Blessed Virgin Mary pointing to her heart, which is glowing with love and surrounded by flowers. To me it means her heart is full of pure love and care, and she wants to help bring us safely to Jesus.

Kathy at Littlemore Farm


Mother of Beautiful Love


The Latin words under this picture say, “Ego Mater pulchrae dilectionis,” which means, “I am the Mother of beautiful love.” It shows the Blessed Virgin Mary with her heart showing on her chest, and her hands open like she is inviting us to come close. To me it means Mary wants to teach us a clean, gentle kind of love that leads us straight to Jesus. 
 
Kathy at Littlemore Farm


Wednesday, February 11, 2026

A Very Deep Sentence



That is a very deep little sentence — and very much St. Thérèse

St. Thérèse is saying that she doesn’t need warm, sweet feelings to prove she loves Jesus. Even if prayer feels plain or dry, she will still choose Him, because loving Jesus is the right and sensible thing to do. It’s like doing a chore out of true love—you keep going, not because it feels special, but because your heart means it.

Celebrate Our Lady of Lourdes Feast Day!






Friday, February 6, 2026

While the Door Was Still Open



Kathy and I were engaged only about six months, and even then it didn’t feel like we were hurrying so much as finally saying out loud what we already knew—that we belonged to each other and we were ready to begin. The length of the engagement never worried me. It felt settled. Calm. As though the decision had already been made, and we were simply waiting for the formalities to catch up with the truth.

But if I had known what was happening in Zeitoun in 1968, I believe even those six months would have felt long.

Not because love should be rushed, but because some moments in history are unmistakably time-bound. The reports from Zeitoun describe something that did not happen once and disappear, but returned again and again—beginning in the spring of 1968 and continuing, on and off, for several years. Night after night, sometimes multiple times a week, people gathered simply to wait. And what they waited for was not a message, not a demand, not a program—just presence.

In that other life, I imagine Kathy and me recognizing that clarity for what it was. We would have married simply, without delay, and gone to Zeitoun together. Not forever. Not dramatically. But deliberately. We would have stayed until the apparitions subsided, which would have meant quite a while. Long enough that the beginning of our marriage would be shaped not by hurry or ambition, but by patience, shared attention, and reverence.

What holds my imagination there is that Zeitoun was not experienced as a spectacle. It was experienced as something quietly real. People didn’t only come to look; many came burdened, tired, hurting. Alongside the widespread reports of the apparition itself, there were also reports of healings—physical and interior—spoken of almost incidentally, without fanfare. Some people claimed relief from long illnesses or disabilities after being present or after praying there. There was no system built to catalogue these things, no medical tribunal, no encouragement to advertise them. They seemed to occur the way grace often does: quietly, unexpectedly, without instruction.

That detail matters to me. It suggests that Zeitoun wasn’t about chasing miracles. It was about standing near something holy and letting whatever might happen, happen—or not. In that atmosphere, I can see Kathy and me learning early what marriage really asks of two people: to wait together, to hope without demanding, to receive without trying to control outcomes.

The scale of what happened there only deepens the seriousness of the choice. The crowds were not small. Tens of thousands gathered on ordinary nights; on peak evenings, estimates ran into the hundreds of thousands. Christians and Muslims stood side by side. Skeptics came. Journalists came. The events were photographed and filmed, and images were shown on Egyptian television, meaning the circle of witnesses extended far beyond those physically present. Even Egypt’s president at the time, Gamal Abdel Nasser, is widely reported to have taken an interest and to have witnessed the phenomenon himself, or at least to have investigated it closely. Whether every detail can be nailed down with documentation isn’t the point. What matters is that this was not hidden, not private, not marginal. It unfolded in full public view.

So when I imagine quitting college in that moment, I don’t imagine irresponsibility. I imagine choosing a different responsibility first. College is valuable, but it is not sacred. A career can be rebuilt, rerouted, delayed. But the chance to begin a marriage while grace was visibly at work in the world—shared, unforced, freely given—that is not something you can return to later by reading about it.

If I had known then what was happening at Zeitoun, I believe the wiser course would have been to shorten an already short engagement, marry the woman I loved, and place the first chapter of our life together where faith was not an abstraction, but something people gathered to witness in silence. We could have stayed as long as Mary stayed, and let that season quietly set the direction for everything that followed.

I don’t say this to diminish the life I lived. I say it because some opportunities are not about advancement, but about orientation. And if I had recognized that in 1968, I think I would have chosen Kathy, our marriage, and a season at Zeitoun—while the door was still open.

Monday, January 5, 2026

Feast of Epiphany

We Hail thee, strong child, who didst put to flight all hell and the powers of darkness. We give thee our homage, and with all our hearts we pray thee to vouchsafe in thy goodness to be born again in spirit in our souls, that, led captive by thy loveliness and sweetness they may ever live united to thy most sweet and loving heart.

Mary, Help of Christians
Benziger Brothers 1909



The last words of Advent were those of the Spouse, recorded in the prophecy of the Beloved Disciple: Come, Lord Jesus, Come! We will close this first part of our Christmas with those words of the Prophet Isaias, which the Church has so often spoken to us: unto us a Child is born! The heavens have dropped down their Dew, the clouds have rained down the Just One, the earth has yielded its Saviour, The Word is Made Flesh, the Virgin has brought forth her sweet Fruit, our Emmanuel, that is, God with us. The Sun of Justice now shines upon us; darkness has fled; in heaven there is Glory to God; on earth there is Peace to men. All these blessings have been brought to us by the humble yet glorious Birth of this Child. Let us adore him in his Crib; let us love him for all his love of us; and let us prepare the gifts we intended to present to him, with the Magi, on today's Epiphany. The joy of the Church is as great as ever; the Angels are adoring in their wondering admiration; all nature thrills with delight: Unto us is born a little Child!

Post Communion (if you received)

May this communion, O Lord, cleanse us from sin, and by the intercession of blessed Mary, the Virgin-Mother of God, make us partakers of thy heavenly remedy.


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